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Archive for September, 2008

Too Tired

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 29, 2008

I Have wireless, but quite frankly I am just too tired to have anything intelligent to say. Genius that I am, I ended up with a hotel in a bad neighborhood, right by the train tracks (love that horn) and in a really bad neighborhood. I also drove to here with a rental car that needs an alignment. Bad! As an added bonus, my “k” key only works if I beat the heck out of it, so, until another time I guess.

I’ll leave you with a tired puppy, he’s way cuter than me.

Photo by Phil Romans via Flickr

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On The Road Again

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 29, 2008

On The Road

Flying cross-country for the week. Well, for four days, only to fly home and most likely fly back to the same state again. Funny how that works. Man, there better be wireless this time!

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Good Questions That Need Answering

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 26, 2008

Anyone who knows me, or has seen my bookshelf knows I am a huge fan of L.E. Modesitt, Jr. I recently stumbled across his blog, and to see someone who write so well in so many forms, I am doubly impressed. I just hope he does not mind me borrowing his words. The other day, he asked some questions, and I think we all need answers. Perhaps if enough people ask we can get some answers, if not solutions. I cannot think of a better way to spread the word that to, well, spread the typeface if you will. Hey, a girl’s gotta have dreams.  Without further ado, the questions:

Why is it that liberals — usually Democrats — are so ready to spend tax dollars to make sure that those who are less advantaged can attain the “American dream” and so ready to condemn and tax those who have actually achieved it?

Why is it that when a man with small children runs for public office, he’s hailed as a good family man while a female candidate for the same office is asked how she can handle the job and her family? Is this because we expect the job to be so taxing that the office-holder must neglect family and because no man is expected to take on family responsibilities? Isn’t that just chauvinism one step removed?

Why is it that so many conservatives — usually Republicans — are so fond of the Bill of Rights when it comes to the first amendment [freedom of religion] and the second amendment [owning guns] and want to ignore it so much when it comes to matters such as the fourth, fifth, and sixth amendments [freedom from unreasonable search and seizure, warrants, trial by jury, due process], especially when they apply to the poor and less advantaged, who are the ones who need those rights most?

Why is it that some political candidates declare that the answer to the pay-gender gap is that women should get more education when women have been getting more collegiate degrees than men for at least a decade? Or is what they mean that women have to have more education to get the same — or less — pay than men?

When government gives money to individuals who can’t make ends meet, it’s called welfare, but when it gives money to corporations, it’s called an incentive or a credit [or an absolutely necessary financial system reform]. Why the difference?

This is not all, just the part that spoke to me, said things I was thinking about, but do not quite have the ability to put into words. If any of my readers happen to be fans, check out his blog, it well worth reading, and was well worth the search.

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Its Time To Live For The Here and Now

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 25, 2008

All of my life, I have lived for the future. Save for the future, plan for the future, live for the future, and even worse, I have lived for everyone else. I have worked multiple jobs to give my last $5 to family members who do not work more than 1 or 2 days a week, but they need money to get dinner for their kids. I have saved every possible penny for “the future,” and well, I think I have just been reminded that tomorrow is promised to no one. Due to some recent serious health concerns, I have come to realize that tomorrow may never come.

How sad would it be to live your entire life for a tomorrow that never came. To spend your entire life building a financial empire that will only be enjoyed by neices, nephews and even worse, their lazy parents? I don’t know why it took me so long to realize what I should have known all along. Somewhere there has to be some balance, but I woke up and realized that far too many people are depending on me. The bad part is they depend on me not because they have to, but because they can. Did I really set out to become an enabler?

Well, its time to stop. Somehow I need to figure out how to stop holding everyone else’s hand. Yesterday was for eveyone else, tomorrow, somehow will be for me. Now if I can just figure out how …

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WoW Widow Never Again

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 23, 2008

Are you a wow widow? Everquest or Battlefields widow? Ladies, or Gentlemen, if you can’t beat them (the games) join them. For years I have battled with online games, and the amount of time and energy they suck out of a family. I’m tired of fighting it. Having lost my local contract, I am now a bit of a road warrior, which means the only thing I see is airplanes, hotel rooms, and datacenters. So … in an effort to actually have a little contact with the outside world, I’ve caved and started to play WoW.

Really, I’ve known all along that it is a losing battle, to make someone choose between something they love to do, whatever that may be, and yourself. I’ve never really been a believer in the idea that you can change people, they will always be who they have always been. I also believe that no one is perfect, and that fairy tale of perfection, or line of crap, that we have been sold about marriage is just that. Marriage is not about two people finding their soulmates, or some other religious nonsense, its about two best friends making compromises to live and work together.

We have all heard about Mommy Porn, well now, I am calling out the marriage porn, because its still crap. All that silly stuff about people instantly knowing, and being perfectly happy everyday forever, that’s a lie. No one person is perfectly happy everyday forever, even with no stresses, so how can two be every minute of everyday? That idea is nothing but a fiction. Its about compromise, and what level of compromise or sacrifices you are willing to make.

So how, you may ask, does this relate to WoW. Well, as many a Gen X or Y woman may know, a lot of people are addicted to these online games. People spend all theirs days and nights playing, even taking vacation for in-game special events. I thought I remembered a few cases of people playing for so long they eventually had heart failure at their computer. I couldn’t find the link, but if I do later, I will add it. Well, people squirel their entire lives away on these games, and Mr. Pilgrim is one of them. Not the worst, by far, because somehow dogs get let out and fed, dishes get done, and the occasional meal gets cooked, but a gamer is a gamer.

Whenever I think about it, I remember reading this quote, and it brought me to a realization, that you can’t change people, you can only change yourself. I am, just for the record, actually referring to a sibling, we’ll call him Speedy, but he’s a story for another day. I wish I could write something that evoked the same sadness in you, that reading it did in me, but alas, I do not have the words.  So I leave you with the words of Rainer Maria Rilke …

A person isn’t who they are during the last conversation you had with them – they’re who they’ve been throughout your whole relationship.
Rainer Maria Rilke

By the way, if anyone runs into a Blood-Elf Hunter names Keallach, be sure to say hi.

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