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Should I Stay or Should I Go

Posted by IT Pilgrim on December 10, 2008

Decisions … decisions ….When is it all too much? When does sticking it out become nothing more than wasting your life away?

As a serial job hopper, I generally go somewhere, work my hardest until I get bored an leave. Before I leave, I generally manage to shake things up, make a sizable dent in workloads and force the other workers to match my own crazy techno music pace, or die trying. There have been casualties along the way I am sad to say, but I am amused to say that a lot of places are required to use two or sometimes three people fill my shoes. I know how big my shoes can be to fill (and maybe my hat as well) but I always have left my mark.

Well, not here. When I got re-assigned away from Big Black Box Computer Company, well, it all went downhill in a massive mudslide.

So when is it all too much. This year I went from the 25% travel I signed up for, to 100% travel in one fell swoop. So my thought is, when is “sticking it out” actually worthwhile. I know the standard reasons, to establish stability, to make significant contributions, to work your way up the food chain. I don’t see that as a possibility here, though I have to concede that I may just be tired and feeling whiny.  At this point, I don’t even meet my own criteria for staying, as follows:

Am I happy?

Do I feel challenged?

Am I at least friendly with my co-workers?

Do I have a good boss who will help me grow?

Do I have room to grow within my role and the company?

Do I have interesting and creative work?

How easy/hard is it to get up to go to work versus to get up to go to the gym or anyplace else?

Am I living each day in a worthwhile pursuit?

Can I see the results of my work?

Am I making enough money to pay for necessities?

So, you take this list, and weigh they number of questions you answered yes to and the number of questions you answered no to. Add those up. That is the most logical way I know. However, that being said, I also know that I am not really a logical person, and those who say it is just that I am a woman, can stow it. You have to understand who you are, so if logic is enough for you, great, if not, you then have to weigh out how important each one is to you. I usually give them a percentage and add them all up on an excel spreadsheet.  I may not be logic driven, but i’m still a nerd at heart.

If you get some extra time, try it out. Does your current job measure up?

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Please Help Me Beat Sleapiness

Posted by IT Pilgrim on December 5, 2008

For years I have been battling my weight. I am convinced that the reason i struggle so much is that I drink too many sodas. I have tried to give them up, but under the pressure of constant jet lag, little sleep, and boring work, I just get too sleepy. I am hoping that someone out there has a million dollar idea they would be willing to part with. Please, anyone got this one figured out?

Here’s a typical view of my desk, anytime day or night.

mydesk

PS. I HATE coffee. I hate even the smell so much that I will leave the room if someone else has an uncovered cup.

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The Devil’s in the Details (Stranded in Backup Hell)

Posted by IT Pilgrim on October 16, 2008

They say the Devil’s in the details, and I say, ain’t that the truth. Most people are really bad at details, but what always surprises me the most is how in-curious people can be.  How do you work next to someone for day, months, year, and never find out what they do on a day to day basis? As I coast into yet another client site, contracted out to save yet another company, I have to wonder, doesn’t anyone ever write anything down?

I will admit, there is a possibility that the person or people who left, as they always do, took everything with them, and destroyed all evidence that work was ever accomplished. It is also possible that no work was ever accomplished. In general, however, I find that not to be the case, I find that no one ever documents anything, and that workers show such a puzzling lac of curiosity that some of them do not even know the name of the person who has sat next to them, sometimes for years. How sad and disconnected is that?

So, if you do nothing else today, do yourself and future co-workers a REALLY big favor, and write down how you did at least one thing today.

And just for the record. I HATE Arcserve!

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Its Time To Live For The Here and Now

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 25, 2008

All of my life, I have lived for the future. Save for the future, plan for the future, live for the future, and even worse, I have lived for everyone else. I have worked multiple jobs to give my last $5 to family members who do not work more than 1 or 2 days a week, but they need money to get dinner for their kids. I have saved every possible penny for “the future,” and well, I think I have just been reminded that tomorrow is promised to no one. Due to some recent serious health concerns, I have come to realize that tomorrow may never come.

How sad would it be to live your entire life for a tomorrow that never came. To spend your entire life building a financial empire that will only be enjoyed by neices, nephews and even worse, their lazy parents? I don’t know why it took me so long to realize what I should have known all along. Somewhere there has to be some balance, but I woke up and realized that far too many people are depending on me. The bad part is they depend on me not because they have to, but because they can. Did I really set out to become an enabler?

Well, its time to stop. Somehow I need to figure out how to stop holding everyone else’s hand. Yesterday was for eveyone else, tomorrow, somehow will be for me. Now if I can just figure out how …

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WoW Widow Never Again

Posted by IT Pilgrim on September 23, 2008

Are you a wow widow? Everquest or Battlefields widow? Ladies, or Gentlemen, if you can’t beat them (the games) join them. For years I have battled with online games, and the amount of time and energy they suck out of a family. I’m tired of fighting it. Having lost my local contract, I am now a bit of a road warrior, which means the only thing I see is airplanes, hotel rooms, and datacenters. So … in an effort to actually have a little contact with the outside world, I’ve caved and started to play WoW.

Really, I’ve known all along that it is a losing battle, to make someone choose between something they love to do, whatever that may be, and yourself. I’ve never really been a believer in the idea that you can change people, they will always be who they have always been. I also believe that no one is perfect, and that fairy tale of perfection, or line of crap, that we have been sold about marriage is just that. Marriage is not about two people finding their soulmates, or some other religious nonsense, its about two best friends making compromises to live and work together.

We have all heard about Mommy Porn, well now, I am calling out the marriage porn, because its still crap. All that silly stuff about people instantly knowing, and being perfectly happy everyday forever, that’s a lie. No one person is perfectly happy everyday forever, even with no stresses, so how can two be every minute of everyday? That idea is nothing but a fiction. Its about compromise, and what level of compromise or sacrifices you are willing to make.

So how, you may ask, does this relate to WoW. Well, as many a Gen X or Y woman may know, a lot of people are addicted to these online games. People spend all theirs days and nights playing, even taking vacation for in-game special events. I thought I remembered a few cases of people playing for so long they eventually had heart failure at their computer. I couldn’t find the link, but if I do later, I will add it. Well, people squirel their entire lives away on these games, and Mr. Pilgrim is one of them. Not the worst, by far, because somehow dogs get let out and fed, dishes get done, and the occasional meal gets cooked, but a gamer is a gamer.

Whenever I think about it, I remember reading this quote, and it brought me to a realization, that you can’t change people, you can only change yourself. I am, just for the record, actually referring to a sibling, we’ll call him Speedy, but he’s a story for another day. I wish I could write something that evoked the same sadness in you, that reading it did in me, but alas, I do not have the words.  So I leave you with the words of Rainer Maria Rilke …

A person isn’t who they are during the last conversation you had with them – they’re who they’ve been throughout your whole relationship.
Rainer Maria Rilke

By the way, if anyone runs into a Blood-Elf Hunter names Keallach, be sure to say hi.

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